so im feeing much better today..

think ive gotten out of my feeling crappy rut....

its weird...im usually a pretty optimistic and upbeat person....

not sure what got into me...but it wasnt cool....

i think im done with that and time to move on....

its the holiday season...well one day away from December and I love this time of year...

cant wait to put up the Christmas decorations....

i think im already in the holiday break mode, but unfortunately I still have 2 massive papers left...

ive been shopping online a lot lately instead of doing my papers...

I love shopping online and Christmas shopping is another excuse for me to shop....

downtown is gorgeous during the holiday season with all the Christmas lights and decorations

so Ive been feeling really blah lately......im not really sure why....

maybe its the stress of school ....i cant really pinpoint it...

but its been making me so tired lately...i feel like I have no energy at all....

its getting closer to the end of the year, I decided that Im going to start my paper work for travel nursing in Jan and its been making me really anxious.....

That might possibly be the reason im feeling so blah...i havent really discussed the issue with my bf and not knowing what his reaction may be makes me nervous.....

but i didnt really want to bring it up before the holidays because i really dont know how hes going to react and if its not going to be good, i dont want it to potentially ruin the holidays....

*sigh......

2 weeks left of school.....

2 papers left....

day 4 of paper writing...well i basically wasted the first 2 days...so really its day 2...

6/15 pages....not bad...much improvement....

and i might have scored myself a preceptor for placement...fingers crossed that this one will work out.....but im not going to get my hopes up......

and it is a lovely Monday on week 11....hell yeah!

2 weeks until the end of my last semester of classes....and a whole 5 months untill freedom :)

2009 Victoria Secret Fashion Show was in NY this year......it was on Nov 19 but it doesnt air till Dec 1.....

Alessandra Ambrosio...i luv her...

for some strange reason i luv the VS shows...they're so over the top but its become like a Christmas season tradition...i watch it every year...maybe its the sense of fantasy it projects....

cant wait for the show :)

in the mean time....in midst of yet another paper writing bind.....

0/15 pages...

its a sad rainy crappy November day....

its all foggy and rainy....rain is gross....

I hate rain, i prefer snow, at least we can have some fun with snow and hit the slopes....

my mood is highly affected by the weather...crappy weather just makes me feel icky....

but i managed to drag my ass downtown to go to school....

just received emails back from 2 clinical placement coordinators at different teaching hospitals...

no good news...*sigh....

apparently all APNs in pain management are NPs :(

so Im still stuck with no response from my school's clinical coordinator...

countdown to the end of the semester has begun...time's ticking...

its good and bad...im that much closer to graduation and yet so far cuz i still dont have a placement....so frustrating

my phone decided to be mean to me and reset itself....

so my phone has killed off all my stuff on it....awesome.....

on top of that...my clinical placement for the winter semester is still in the hole....

i have no preceptor and the school's placement coordinator decides to take vacation for 2 weeks until dec....

i hope i wont have to push back graduation a semester...it wont be pretty cuz clinical will have to be pushed into the summer session :(

its annoying because i started sooo early to find a placement too...all that effort went down the hole.....now im stuck a month before the semester's over and trying to find a damn placement....

*sigh...i just need to breathe...im so close to the end of this program...i just want to be done and move on....

2 long ass papers away from my last semester of classes....

on the side note, went to work over the weekend....

apparently some of our patients think that health care professionals are really stupid...

the 2 years ive been working, ive seen a lot of craziness...

but this is something different.....faking seizures.....

best line of the weekend "by the way, ill be flipping my eyes in about an hr" ....who knew u could predict ur own seizures....

it never fails that before I have an essay due that I get sick....

so I feel like crap and my essay is due tomorrow...good thing its essentially done...

but its taking so long just to even edit it.....

im so super slow mo today....

But on the bright side, thanks to the wonderful world of shopping online...

I was able to cross off some names on my Christmas list....and also some for me of course....

I ordered more DSK Jewelry...yay!....im so excited..cant wait!