Consulted

Had another day off yesterday....went downtown to get my grad pictures done for school and then i went to my first lasik consultation....yay! so it turns out im a candidate for lasik, i still have one more consultation to go to next week to compare what they have to say....hopefully ill have my procedure booked and done by may....thats what im aiming for......its going to be expensive but im not sure what other option i have if i cant wear contacts anymore.....i have so many unopened pairs of contacts that i have no idea what to do with anymore.....

have to finish my project for clinical today as my last day is tomorrow....sooo excited, i cannot wait until next tues for the poster presentation....then its all done and im finally freeeeeee....

today is suppose to be 16!! and we're suppose to hit 25 by fri...thats crazy, we didnt even see 25 degrees last summer, mind you it was a oddly cold summer last year.... 25 in april is pretty strange but i dont think anyone's complaining...afterall, we lack sun and warmth in Toronto, its about time we all get some vitamin D :)

One more week

survived another weekend at work..so this will be my 2nd weekend in a row that i worked......trying to get rid of my last weekend...working 3 weekends in a row is lame.....it was actually a decent weekend, my friends were on and as busy as it was, it was fun...and it was actually not so weird working with him this weekend.....since im getting closer to the end of school, everyone's been asking what i want to do next....i guess being asked this question so often lately made me really think about what i want...the answer is that i really dont know...when i was younger, i really thought that id have it all figured out by now...but now im on the verge of 25 and i still dont really have a clear idea of what i really want...marriage, kids?!?...yes i guess eventually but definitely not right now....i feel like i still dont know what i want and at this moment, the thought of marriage and kids makes me think of settling...not that settling is a negative thing, its just that it means a lot of responsibilities...for some reason i tend to associate all that with starting to get into a routine where all you do is work, pay a mortgage and try to balance a life between work and kids.....right now, that just seems scary....but whats scarier is that im almost 25 and feel so clueless....this is perhaps the biggest reason i want to leave for a while, i need to go "find myself", as cheesy as it sounds, i think i really need some time to myself, to remove myself from my current routine and really figure out what my next steps are because I feel like im getting a little too old to not know....im getting to the age when people expect you to settle down, perhaps this is me rebelling against societal standards of their expectations of me....ive never gone through a stage of rebellion when i was younger, to think of it...maybe im slow and this is my rebellion...haha or perhaps im going through my quarter life crisis....i wonder if this is just me or other people experience this too...cuz it seems like everyone around me is getting engaged and settling....

True love?

When I opened my safari today, a story popped up from yahoo about a stork.....
its such a sweet story, the male stork visits his injured mate in Croatia every year from South Africa...the female stork was shot through its wings by hunters and hasnt been able to fly since, so shes being cared for in Croatia by a farmer...every year for the last 5 years since the incident, the male stork has come back every year for mating season.....after their babies hatch, the male stork would teach them how to fly because she cant, then they will all make the journey to South Africa when the young are strong enough to fly...

i think this story is so cute...such devotion is so sweet ...

Uncalled for...

working in a hospital....ive encountered and met people during the hardest times in their times....which means that I often meet people when they're not themselves and are rude and unreasonable....dealing with patients in these situations is one thing, however their families are often the most difficult aspect to handle.....families of patients can sometimes be just straight up irrational and unreasonable....as much as we try to emphasize with their situation many are just unreasonable...their demands are often never based on logic and their behaviors are consumed by their emotions, all of which all health care providers are well aware of....

but yesterday, i think i have met the worst of all pts families that ive encountered thus far...we deal with a lot of "difficult" families, but she was something else....this 87 year old lady was so mean and condescending, it was basically verbal abuse....not only did she call all the nurses idiotic and al the residents stupid, she goes on to make this remark after speaking to one of the female residents...."i dont want to speak to her, i want to speak to a male doctor. Women doctors should not be doctors, they should be at home raising kids..." .....um...right, what century do we live in? I mean i understand shes from a different generation, but how can a woman say something so degrading.... whats more interesting is how hypocritical she is...apparently she used to help her husband run the nursing home they own, but every other woman should be at home raising kids...of course, on top of all her horrible comments about how incompetent our staff is, she makes ridiculous demands on all these tests her 91 year old husband should be put through.....then she goes on to threaten to never make a donation to the hospital again cuz we're all idiots....nothing annoys me more than when rich people think that they can use that as a threat to get their way....some of them feel that they're entitled to "special treatment" just because they regularly make donations to the hospital....its great that u are contributing to the advancement of hospitals and science...but im not sure why u think health care providers should treat you any differently.....that would be unethical ...sometimes patients are demanding enough, but throw in the fact that they're loaded, sometimes they become monsters....im not trying to generalize and say that all rich patients are like that but some can be ...and its so annoying.....

i hope this lady is gone by the time i go back to work next weekend.....on a brighter note...im off for 2 days :)

crazy weather

It was 18 degrees yesterday outside..18!... and now its snowing....wtf......seriously?....im so sad i miss the sun already.....
i realized it has almost been 4 months since ive been able to wear my contacts....its crazy...i dont remember what its like anymore....i cant wait till my first consultation for lasik...cuz this glasses business is ridiculous, its so inconvenient at work....it actually grosses me out......one more week until my consultation, hopefully i'll be suitable for lasik......

watched Zombieland yesterday...its actually a decent movie....i thought it looked so stupid when it came out but its actually quite entertaining....




time for some homework .....2 more weeks until freedom :)

Day Off

i had an unexpected day off today, i was suppose to go into clinical today, however found out that my preceptor wasnt feeling well and didnt go to work.....basically i trucked all the way there for nothing, o well, hope shes alright...so i had a day off...something i totally needed...im still not recovered from vegas yet in that im dead tired....i need to catch up on sleep but hadnt had a chance to with school and work...on top of that i managed to get mon off as well...sWEeet! no work...otherwise i would have had a total of 3 days off in 2 weeks in between school, clinical and work....days off = homework...so its just means that i dont physically have to be somewhere else...

3 more weeks until the end of my program...YAY!...i am so excited for the end...i can almost see the light!

its 17 degrees outside today...crazy! it was 17 degrees last summer...and its only march...but apparently its suppose to snow next week....one more storm before its spring.....im so excited for warm weather...

this was suppose to be my purchase from Vegas...but a stupid scratch on the bag ruined my purchase...and i wasnt able to find the color anywhere other than the balenciaga store....its so beautiful...


cant even order it online because it only accepts amercian credit cards,,,if only i lived in the states...i think i'd be broke..but happy broke...everything is so much more accessible and cheaper

Home

Came back from Vegas last night...and im already sad...i was starting to get sad when i knew it was our last day....sigh...
coming back to all the stresses of life just makes me sad...back to the grind....
our flight was suppose to leave at 1245pm Vegas time, but there was something wrong with one of the wheels?!...we ended up being stuck on the plane for 2 hrs before we were finally able to take off...
i dont mind plane rides...but i hate it when we're grounded and just sitting there breathing recycled air...yea not a big fan...
we finally got home at 10pm...2 hours late, i was hungry and soooo sleepy....and i had to wake up to go to school today....thank goodness my class is at 1 cuz i would not be able to wake up early....
the weather was nice today at home too...17 degrees ..sweet...i could get used to this...
but i wish i was still chilling by the pool..

i miss vegas :(

Almost Vegas time!

1 day away from Vegas!! yay!! im in dire need of some warm sunlight...
Im ready to get a tan...well my version of a tan, which is probably unnoticeable to other people...
even though i fly out tomorrow, i still have so much work to do for school before i leave....
but im excited to chill for the weekend :)

Also started looking at lasik centres....booked 2 consultation appointments ...im not really sure where to go...
its hard to determine which clinics are reputable...they're all big chain clinics, but really, how am i suppose to know whose actually decent....
im nervous about these consultations, im not sure if ill be eligible for the procedure...i hope so but this dry eyes business apparently may make me not suitable....but its never been a chronic issue as it has been for a recent issue.....
hope it goes well because im really looking forward to not having to wear glasses again....i miss my contacts...but i really dont think my eyes have necessarily made any improvements since the last time i put in contacts....sigh.....and i hope its not ridiculously expensive....cuz thats going to put a damper in my savings for moving to london......

It feels like Spring!

i think its like 5 degrees outside today...it feels like spring! as much as I love snow, its not fun when i dont get to go snowboarding on it....i went a whole season without hitting the slopes...its so sad..my weekends consist of either going to work or doing homework...yes i live a pretty uneventful life...its sad that all i do is work, clinical and homework......i havent really gone out with my friends since new years....im in active hibernation and i cant wait till im done with all of this and I can finally go out....

trying to finish up my abstract for the poster presentation...i hate word limits and 300 word limit is brutal...i feel like i cant write anything down...so lame...



i love this montage of the "I Believe" song from the Olympics...a song that everyone initially thought was a pretty corny song in the beginning turned out to be the most downloaded song in Canada on itunes during the Olympics...its so catchy...i love it!

been working a lot lately...well not A LOT by normal standards but a lot for me and combined with clinical...its almost as much as normal standards...i finished clinical for the week but still have 2 more days at work to go this weekend...not really looking forward to it since I had such a busy day on Wed....but working with him again hasnt been so bad...better than the first time around...I think id still prefer to not if I had a choice....anyways ...1 more week till Vegas!

I was watching TLC's Say Yes to the Dress...im not sure why but i like watching this show...im a big reality show junkie but I usually just stick to MTV shows....not the most informative or stimulating channel but i feel like TV is downtime and I should be able to watch watever trashiness that entertains me...and i love my MTV...back to TLC...so on this particular episode, this bride was telling her story of how she met her fiance and basically "their story"....usually people on the show have pretty cute stories ....but she met him while they were both on vacation and I guess they fell in love at first sight..so on and so forth..the interesting thing was that she later found out after the trip that he was actually engaged...obviously he dumped his ex fiance after that and got with her..and now 8 months later they're engaged....is it just me or is that a little weird....im not sure thats a "how we met" story i would want to tell my kids...i found it a little disturbing on the note that the guy actually hit on another girl while he had a fiance at home and well he eventually ditched her too...personally, i think this new fiance is brave, i dont think i would be able to trust someone like that...her reasoning for his behavior was that he realized something was missing from his last relationship and it was her...um..right...if he made that mistake once...technically, cant it happen again? i guess it just wasnt meant to be with the first fiance...

HE SHOOTS...HE SCORES!!

Canada for the Gold!!...
best way to end the Olympics...we couldnt have asked for a better ending than a GOLD in hockey...an amazing game and i think i got palpitations from watching the game...i have never been so anxious watching sports before...but im so proud we beat the US..afterall...it is our game they're playing...

The olympics were great...we beat the record for the most gold medals won ever during the games....thats freakin awesome!! but the closing ceremony was a little lame...i was embarassed to watch it...all those Canadian sterotypes were horrible and not even funny...and i cant believe we couldnt get bigger acts for the ceremony...o well...all in all it was a great 2.5 weeks...wish i could have been in Vancouver ...

today was the first day of the new teams and hes back...wasnt as weird...we'll see how it goes..