One more week

survived another weekend at work..so this will be my 2nd weekend in a row that i worked......trying to get rid of my last weekend...working 3 weekends in a row is lame.....it was actually a decent weekend, my friends were on and as busy as it was, it was fun...and it was actually not so weird working with him this weekend.....since im getting closer to the end of school, everyone's been asking what i want to do next....i guess being asked this question so often lately made me really think about what i want...the answer is that i really dont know...when i was younger, i really thought that id have it all figured out by now...but now im on the verge of 25 and i still dont really have a clear idea of what i really want...marriage, kids?!?...yes i guess eventually but definitely not right now....i feel like i still dont know what i want and at this moment, the thought of marriage and kids makes me think of settling...not that settling is a negative thing, its just that it means a lot of responsibilities...for some reason i tend to associate all that with starting to get into a routine where all you do is work, pay a mortgage and try to balance a life between work and kids.....right now, that just seems scary....but whats scarier is that im almost 25 and feel so clueless....this is perhaps the biggest reason i want to leave for a while, i need to go "find myself", as cheesy as it sounds, i think i really need some time to myself, to remove myself from my current routine and really figure out what my next steps are because I feel like im getting a little too old to not know....im getting to the age when people expect you to settle down, perhaps this is me rebelling against societal standards of their expectations of me....ive never gone through a stage of rebellion when i was younger, to think of it...maybe im slow and this is my rebellion...haha or perhaps im going through my quarter life crisis....i wonder if this is just me or other people experience this too...cuz it seems like everyone around me is getting engaged and settling....